Today, I really wonder where I stand this whole friendship. Yes they are nice to me, but only to a certain extent. I can't even imagine how anyone of them could treat me like a good friend for the rest of their lifes. People are just too impersonal.

It's not that I didn't try. Everyone knows that in theory, you must give and take in a friendship. But what's the use if I am doing all the giving? Maybe I didn't give enough?
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About Person 1 (not classmate though):

I am so sick and tired of initiating the conversation on msn. It's way too tiring. It's like a one-sided relationship. As if I am the only one who is doing all the talking. I always had to start with a topic. I've run dry. Couldn't you just care more? There are times where I wanted to just end this friendship because it's so meaningless to continue yet it's far too important to me. Terrible. Furthermore, the only way we communicate is via msn which makes it even more difficult to keep in touch. Love you to bits everytime you tell me that you care. Saying and doing are two completely different things though.
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About Group 2 (class people):

There are times I am happy with them, but there are also times when they make me terribly sad. I don't know what is going on in their minds. It's like everyone is living their own lives and they don't care about the people around them, except for those they want to care for. PE was bad enough. Pairing up. I went to the toilet. Silly of me to return, then run back to the toilet. Then physics. Wasn't better, wasn't worse. Surrounded by still air. I am just like any other girl who likes to take photos, go out, hang out, gossip etc etc. Would people ever understand that I am not a mugger and definitely not some self-centered freak? I would be so willing to lend people my notes, give them help if they need ok. Oh wells. This is my fate. Should just act as if nothing happened and go back with a happy mask (:
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About Person 3 (classmate):

This is one strange person. Sometimes close, the other times not. Makes me all confused. GRR. But hopefully things will turn out better for us. This is the only friendship that I have confidence in but not much still.
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I want 4 faith back ): Miss everyone like crazy. Especially yanyi. I wish i could hug her so tightly and never let her go.

I am actually resorting to DA to post this crap so that not many that I know will see it. FML.